i’ll be fine, right?
i’m always fine.
always perfectly fine every single time you drive me over the edge and i want to put myself in the hospital because i can’t take it
because i’m young means i have it easy? i have nothing to worry about? nothing to be sad over, right?
sure.
Those things you want to protect me from have already reached me
A long, long time ago.
You’re too late.
You will never be able to save me.
I am terrified of failing.
I am so scared.
One of my classmates told me that I looked miserable.
When I am calm and neutral, I am unaware of what type of expression I wear. But usually people will ask me if I’m okay.
Is it true than? Do I display a miserable expression? They say that your ‘normal’ expression shows your deepest, most hidden emotion.
So if that’s the case, I guess I do look pretty miserable. It should be expected of a person who is always sad.
If you really want something to worry about I can slit my wrists right now how about that, would that make you happy? Would that please you?
Do you want me to give you a reason to be concerned? Because oh, I can.
The doctor asked my mom if she wanted to abort me because they thought there was something wrong with my feet and that I would be paralyzed. (I’m just flatfooted btw)
Wow, to think that I almost didn’t exist.
So close.
1 The only reason I like drinking is because it calms down my body and slows down my thoughts. I feel like I’m floating on a cloud and nothing else matters because I’m not completely aware of anything. I’m just enjoying time as it slows down just a tiny bit.
Just another sip, and another.
1 I wonder if i killed myself
if it would
start a chain
of suicides
Everyone is always telling me how strong I am etc.
I wish I could believe it. I really don’t see it. I’m weak, the only reason why you think I’m strong is because I haven’t died yet. If I’m strong because I’m still alive than so are the rest of the billions of people suffering each day.
So you are strong too.
